Friday, September 13, 2013

Currently...


Currently I'm marvelling at the chaos of this week. Todd is away on an excercise with work and it feels like all of my plans for this week have fallen by the wayside. And I am struggling with that. I'm such a planner, that when things don't go to plan it messed with me and I just can't get myself sorted.
I had a massive to-do list this week that covered two pages and I think I have only marked off two things. Why is it that a baby has to be teething big time and a 7 year has to push every single boundary possible when there aren't another set of hands to help out.

Currently I'm redecorating. I've moved coffee tables, painted furniture, planning on more and trying to figure out how and where to place things. Never thought I would spend half an hour staring blankly at a bedside table trying to figure out what exactly to put on top of it. With the previous occupant sitting on the floor next to it. Lets face it I will probably just pick it all up and plonk it on top and call it a day. Right now I don't think I have the energy.

Currently loving drinking coffee with homemade vanilla syrup. Seriously, so cheap and so good. Can't believe what I was spending before on the store bought rubbish.

Currently in denial that its spring. Seriously, how and when did this happen? I guess that's what happens when you have a baby, you get so caught up in the new baby world that the seasons just seem to be skipped. Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like this. I feel like the last 6 months have been a total blur. And that makes me a little sad, as these moments are far to precious to miss out on.

Currently... Currently... Blank. Lacking inspiration. Lacking concentration. Lacking motivation. I have so many projects in the works. So many posts I have started. So many things I want to do that I am just frozen. I can't seem to get my words out, or my finished product to that point. I'm not sure why. Perhaps this is just the season of my life right now.

Currently I am just going to go with it. If I get the posts written great. If I finish my projects awesome. If not, that's okay too. 

Currently giving myself permission not to be the picture in my mind that I want myself to be.



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