It's no secret that I have a thing for twinkly lights. I find them so magical and kind of hypnotic. Like one glance at them leads to hours on end of watching them while pondering about life. Do you ever do that? Just sit and watch the lights and think. I hope I'm not the only who who does it because it's so good!
I like to make a hot chocolate to sip slowly while I reflect, plan, dream all by twinkly light. I come up with goals, ideas, adventures and I'm pretty sure that the lights have a lot to do with it. I'm not sure why but I am finding myself super emotional this Christmas. Like every moment seems so significant. Perhaps it's because Mia and Ryan are getting older and I am dreading the day they no longer believe in the magic, wink wink. Perhaps it's because it's Connors first Christmas, one that I have been so excitedly looking forward to since last Christmas when I was still growing him. Perhaps it's because I made a conscious decision to soak everything up, to truly experience it all this year. Perhaps that is making me really see all the special moments and that's what's making me so emotional.
I don't know. What I do know is that I feel so blessed, and I don't want to take any of it for granted. So I sit by the magical twinkly lights and I ponder. And I try to imprint it all into my mind and heart so that even the smallest memories are never forgotten.